today was mostly terrible. i got to work to find out that they're not planning on hiring help for me. so i, as a part-time librarian who mostly does paperwork, get to do my job and the other full-time research/cle/marketing/everything else librarian. and still be part time, since i have school, ta stuff, research stuff, and life to deal with besides the job. this led to me crying in my bosses office this morning. not good. but whatever. they'll soon see it's just not possible for one person to do, even if i am awesome.

i had to prepare the lab i'm teaching in the morning today. i got to school to do it, when i realized i'd left the lab at home. awesome. luckily one of the other ta's was around, so i borrowed hers.

i have a midterm tomorrow. i have not started studying. i haven't had the time or motivation.

all of these things add up to:
1. i should be finishing the lab so i don't look like an idiot in 9 hours when teaching
2. i should be studying for my midterm
3. i should be sleeping

what am i doing? hitting refresh. that's right. i'm hitting refresh every 5 seconds on nytimes, fivethirtyeight, pollster, realclearpolitics, and cnn.

some of my faith in humanity may remain after tonight. but i'm pretty sure my gpa is fucked.

I'm doing a thesis for my Psych MA program, but I need your help: click here to take a survey on gender role attitudes and religion (or lack thereof). It'd be a huge help if everyone could take it (only once!) and pass it along to everyone they know.

Thanks!!

So as sad as it may seem, I don't own any Ani.  What should I get first (and maybe 2nd, 3rd, 4th, 5th, etc)?

I don't know how to put into words everything that has happened recently.  I want to.  But I start, and I can't seem to finish. 

So, in short, I've lost two of the most important people in my life.  One to death (my uncle Alan), and one to growing apart (Charity).  Both situations are incredibly painful and shitty.  But I'll be okay.  Because that's the only way I can be. 

I'll be going to NYU in September for my MA in psych.  Moving to New York scares the shit out of me.  But I have to do it.  If I don't, I'm a failure.  I'm giving up everything I've said I'm working for.

My anthem as of late has been Fiona Apple's "A Mistake"

I'm a different person than most of you knew.  And I'm okay with that. 

Can someone give me the new galileo password?  Please? 

New York plans to make gender a personal choice



Awesome

My uncle's having open-heart surgery today.  So we'll see how that goes. 

Yep, it's true.  As of Monday morning, I'm employed again.  I'm so relieved.  I'm going to be a library assistant at a major law firm.  I'm excited about it.  My boss is really nice.  And cool, in that awkward kind of way.  At the end of the interview he asked if his anti-Bush stuff was going to offend me (he had some posters up in his cubicle).  I told him not at all, and that he should see my car.  We're totally going to get along. 

So I've been looking for a job like crazy the past few weeks.  It's hard enough to find a decent job without people being fucking idiots.  Am I wrong, or is entry-level supposed to mean no experience necessary?  There's a few ads I've looked at that say they're entry-level positions, but you have to have a minimum of a year experience.  How the hell does that make sense?  Gah.  I'm getting really frustrated with this.  I know my standards are probably too high for a job, but they're getting lower everyday.  Oh, and I have to say that this is really weird.  Charity started a job today.  Which means I'm the one sitting at home watching tv.  We have almost completely switched.  It's crazy. 

So yea, besides looking for jobs I've been spending my time looking for grad programs.  And going out drinking.  It's what I do.  Don't worry, I'm not going to become an alcoholic or anything.  I'm just enjoying myself, but I'm being safe. 

Alright.  There was pretty much no point to this.  I just got real annoyed about the job ads and I needed to vent for a second. 

Things in LA are alright.  I haven't found a job yet (but to be honest I haven't really looked).  I've been having fun with Charity and some of my other friends out here.  I'm still trying to get settled.  It doesn't feel real yet, but I'm sure it will soon. 

You should this and this for me.  It's fun.  And I'm a little bored.

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